don't say a goodbye , I know there's a better way

 Admit it

You miss your best friend

Admit it

You just telling lies to everyone

as you don't care about them anymore

Admit it

You can't let them go

What am I supposed to do when I know that I can't let you go

I didn't asked anything what you didn't like me to ask

I did try my best

I thought we almost went back to our best friend state

at least I thought

Why must every time you being silence when I need you to step out first

I do miss you

My friend :(

How many tears 

Still got how much of tears I have to spend off

Why those friendship memories was so memorable 

Why must you doing this at the  last

How many times you expected me to stand up after you hurt me ?

I am not strong enough

You did know me well

but why you just don't step out and  say something 

WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY MUST YOU TREAT ME LIKE THAT !

HOW MANY TIMES WE SHOULD BEING LIKE THAT!

I felt tired enough

our friendship 

Is what I still don't hope to let go

I want you back my friend :(

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Pain

Fall

Hurt

Why should misunderstood always appeared

I thought we was about going back to the past situation

We leave each other further

You hate me 

I care you

What can I do

I didn't asked for those questions

But  why ...

why you just don't listen to me

I know that you didn't take anyone as your best friend

Maybe you did

but that was never is me

I thought I was

Tears

drop it 

and heal me 

I begging you

Whenever we pretend , we smile first :)

Hmmmm...

Chinese New Year wish

Happy enough :)

No matters how difficult we pretend to be happier or just have a simple 

SMILE X)

At least we pretended 

We smiled 

We happy before :D

Don't count the bad things in

Just...

try to have a smile !

Every friends of mine , I did care 

I want all of us being happy

So

Stop thinking nonsense 

You think so ? 

Like ! 

:)

Hong Zhang ! 

Thanks again and again ,

always heard me repeat my problems

 宁教人打仔莫教人分妻
你学会了吗？
XD
No emo le :)
谢谢你！

Ah Guek !
Nice to meet you !
we macam can sok very fast =-=
hmmm
thanks for listening my story last time !
as I need a pair of ears
ALIGATO !
the dog is damn cute actually !
next time go sri petaling chatime study together !
ask mai yue leng!

Briyani Soh =A=

You better smile frequently 

find me when recess if you free

I am damn boring and lonely :(

Study hard !

but not stressful , remember !

Don't forget me again :D

All of you

Be happy :) 

The past is the past , it shouldn't meant anything

Hey there

I just don't know why I am writing the diary again

I should be in sleep

But I can't?

Everything I cared just like sand

I hold it tight 

It flew away from my hand

the different was just about this will make me keep bleeding

injured

Every time I thought we can talk better

every time I tried harder

but it seems like nothing being better

It's quite tired , exhausted 

Sometimes I fell down

sometimes I tried to give up

Sometimes

I felt frustrated

I cant stand anymore

What to do was just release 

express

my feelings

Past is the past

What it really meant by?

Meant that I need to accepted that we can't become best friends like last time? 

I meant

before 2012?

I did care about you

I did care 

I DID !

how come you blame me didn't give you a text for asking your status

I did want to ask you

I just afraid

I don't dare to text

I felt stupid

You asked me 

why must you always be the special one who make me angry

because you are the friend the most I care 

how many times you want me to admit

I need you 

past?

I do like the past

at least there was a brighter moment 

I miss you , old one 

Our distance become further .... and futher away

Friends ?

What it's really meant for us ?

It's meant everything of my life

It's hard when the person we care ignores us

It worse and harder when we need to pretend that we just don't care

What happened to your humanity 

You really lost it ?

Or you doesn't care about me before

I thought

I thought 

I thought we will not become worse than last time you ran away from me

But this time is the worst

Its quite 

Suffer

I don't know what happened to me 

Or you

Compared

What did I compared

The past and the present

I compared the past of you and the present of you

because you totally changed

You just didn't realize

What can I do

This was the twice 

The twice I get hurt and get pull away from you again

My care meant rubbish ?

My feelings meant nothing ?

Then why should I care about yours?

You care about yourselves

Even I told you that I am sad

You won't care about it 

That old you

Gone?

Far far away

Sometimes I felt stupid

Why should I give the chances to you 

To hurt your friend once and once again

I meant me 

I do like to cry

I do like to express my feelings

Its quite 

No 

Its damn 

Suffer....

I miss you , friend 

Do you remember

You are the banana who makes me happy always 

That old you 

Ruined

What am I ?

What am I supposed to be in your mind ?

What are you supposed to be in my mind  ?

Did I expected to much ?

I thought I am your best friend too

I always thought that

but I knew that exactly . Not

Then why I treat you so well ?

To get your trash treat on me ?

Seems like I am just the tools to help you solve your problems

I am nothing when no problems around you

Then why you said you won't treat me like that again ?

You changed it back again

I hate this feel

At least not like in the holidays

Just one day

I meant today

I already realize 

you changed back

Who you are???

I really don't know who you are

I just keep venting again

Can you just tell me WHY ?

If you are seeing this

please

don't treat me like trash again

I am totally get hurt :(

I am tired

I just can pretend I am happy but 

I can't stop thinking

venting 

I knew that was dumb

maybe I irritated you again

Sorry for spamming calls

as I just need to ask about 

the tuition 

Today if I didnt go your class 

you remember we still need to find teacher??

I don't think so

Think yourself 

I won't try to do anything for helping again

that was DUMB 

为什么我总是

那么

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